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It's Always You (2/2)

Fandom: Glee
Title: It’s Always You
Summary: Kurt is 38 years old. Falling for his daughter’s best friend shouldn’t be an option.
Pairing/s: Kurt/Blaine, Blaine/Other(s), Kurt/Other
Genre: Angst (and a side order of fluff!)
Rating: Mature Audiences (see warnings)
Words: ~14300
Warnings: (extremely minor) character death, mentions of hate crimes, homophobia (external, mostly, but one allusion to internalised), mention of domestic/emotional abuse, mentions of casual sex

(Part One)

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It's Always You (1/2)

Fandom: Glee
Title: It’s Always You
Summary: Kurt is 38 years old. Falling for his daughter’s best friend shouldn’t be an option.
Pairing/s: Kurt/Blaine, Blaine/Other(s), Kurt/Other
Genre: Angst (and a side order of fluff!)
Rating: Mature Audiences (see warnings)
Words: ~14300
Warnings: (extremely minor) character death, mentions of hate crimes, homophobia (external, mostly, but one allusion to internalised), mention of domestic/emotional abuse, mentions of casual sex

Notes: All for Jenn, again, because she requested age gap but Kurt be older. It’s her birthday, who am I to say no? Once again, un-beta’d so all mistakes come courtesy of me. Language, grammar, tense, if any of it is problematic, drop me a note. Title magpied from Lana Del Ray’s ‘Video Games’. It seems to fit, tonally.

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Only Stop At Exits (2/2)

Triggers: sexual exploitation of a minor (from the very beginning), prostitution, some homophobia (external and internal), rape, self-medication (alcohol), death, anonymous sex
Warnings: character death (minor – ask for details), rape (major – ask for details), underage prostitution (Blaine is 15 at the beginning), casual bondage (minor, not graphic), barebacking (repeated), pegging (once, graphic), STIs
A/N: this was supposed to be something fluffy for Yuletide, except I blow at fluffy and gave up to write “hustler!Blaine” instead. This isn’t exactly what I planned, but it’s not not what I planned either. (This makes it sound like there was a plan beyond “anonymous sex”. There wasn’t.) Tense issues, grammar issues, run on sentences and fragmented sentences all come courtesy of me and my lack of beta. (If you read this and you WANT to beta it, feel free to offer! I’ve never used one and I’ve no idea where to look but god knows this needs some crazy TLC.)

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Only Stop At Exits (1/2)

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Title: “Only Stop At Exits”
Rating: NC-17/18 (mature audiences)
Rated For: Language, themes, sex and sexual violence
Pairing: Blaine/Kurt, Blaine/Sebastian, Blaine/Santana/Brittany, Blaine/Others
Words: ~14K
Triggers: sexual exploitation of a minor (from the very beginning), prostitution, some homophobia (external and internal), rape, self-medication (alcohol), death, anonymous sex
Warnings: character death (minor – ask for details), rape (major – ask for details), underage prostitution (Blaine is 15 at the beginning), casual bondage (minor, not graphic), barebacking (repeated), pegging (once, graphic), STIs
A/N: this was supposed to be something fluffy for Yuletide, except I blow at fluffy and gave up to write “hustler!Blaine” instead. This isn’t exactly what I planned, but it’s not not what I planned either. (This makes it sound like there was a plan beyond “anonymous sex”. There wasn’t.) Tense issues, grammar issues, run on sentences and fragmented sentences all come courtesy of me and my lack of beta. (If you read this and you WANT to beta it, feel free to offer! I’ve never used one and I’ve no idea where to look but god knows this needs some crazy TLC.)

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Blaine Devon Anderson doesn't like the word 'whore'. He finds it pejorative, unhelpful and unfriendly, irrespective of the myriad ways it applies. Blaine has sex for money, but he is not a whore or an escort or a prostitute, and he’s certainly not a slut, irrespective of what some men like to call him when they tie him up and fuck him raw. He likes the word 'hustler', if he has to pick one, but mostly he tries not to think about it at all. Ignoring the things men do to his body has become second nature to him. He remembers the first time someone gave him $20 (and enough tequila to drop an elephant, probably) to use his throat, remembers the weight and feel of a grown man's dick on his tongue and Jesus he'd thought he wanted it. He was 15, and rebelling on the back of a disastrous dance that he'd only just had the cast removed from his wrist after and his parents' casual disregard for his sexual and mental health. If they thought he was only a VD time bomb looking for somewhere to happen, he could be that boy. So he'd dressed in the tightest jeans he owned (almost unhealthily tight but his ass looked great and that's what counted; his ass needed to outweigh his youth, because Blaine has never had a firm grasp of how beautiful his face is, or of the saleability of his eyes) and a fitted Henley he was close to outgrowing, and snuck a ride to Lima's only gay bar before charming a man into getting him in with his hands and his smile (and maybe a kiss or several). The man had taken him by the hand and led him to the bathroom, and Blaine had been on his knees before he even really understood what was expected of him. 15 year old Blaine had had to rely on free porn and Google and some vocal training to take it without choking or biting, his hands grabbing at the man's hips as he tried to remember how to breathe. As it turned out, come tasted bitter on his tongue, the guy held his mouth closed until he swallowed, and $20 made him feel dirty. He didn’t – couldn’t – speak when the man drove him home, dropped him off three blocks from his house because Blaine wouldn’t give him a street address, and Blaine scrubbed his tongue with his toothbrush for what felt like hours. He went back a week later and, the second time, he asked for $30 and insisted on a condom, since no amount of vomit had made him feel like there wasn't come rolling in his stomach and spitting wasn't an option with how far he could let a man into his throat. He never got the guy’s name (not that it mattered) and he wasn’t happy about the condom so Blaine dropped to $25 and felt a lot better about the whole experience.

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Regrets Collect

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Title: Regrets Collect
Fandom: Glee
Pairing: Blaine & Cooper (gen)
Summary: the one where Blaine hooks up with Eli, and only Cooper can put him back together.
Words: ~4700
Warnings: Infidelity

It’s an unrecognised Ohio number on his caller ID for the fourth time in three hours that makes Cooper finally press the accept button, but it’s the choked sound of relief that answers his terse “What?” that makes him wish he’d answered sooner. If Blaine is calling then something is very wrong, and if Blaine is calling him so close to tears that he can barely speak then Cooper owes it to him to listen. It’s got to be edging 2am in Ohio, and Cooper’s hazy on an obnoxious mix of beer and spirits but he’s relatively sure that makes it very early on Thursday morning, so the kid should be tucked up asleep in his best Wonder Woman pyjamas or whatever he wears now. Probably nothing, Cooper reflects, remembering his first girlfriend and being 17, not since the tall glass of milk that Blaine calls his boyfriend entered his life, which brings him naturally to, “How’s Kurt?” and that’s obviously the wrong question because Blaine huffs a broken laugh and says he doesn’t know - he doesn’t fucking know, sorry - because Kurt takes less of his calls than Cooper does and he’s done something awful to him besides. Like, truly awful, unforgivable kind of awful. Cooper wouldn’t be the first to admit it but he’d certainly agree that he doesn’t know too much about his baby brother. He does know one thing, though, and it’s that Blaine’s not actually capable of anything that would leave him permanently unredeemable. Still, the floodgate has broken and Blaine’s talking so fast now that Cooper can’t understand half of the words (it’s been a long night and it should have a few more good hours in it, if he’s honest), but he can almost see the snotty tears over the phone and has to stop him.

“Blaine, buddy, you need to slow down,” he says, loud enough to stop Blaine dead. He makes an excuse to the closest person listening and heads outside onto the balcony so he can hear Blaine more clearly. “Do you want me to come home?”

A sniff and then, “No,” and a beat, “Yes?” Cooper listens to the silence as Blaine tries to compose himself, something he’s always been scarily good at. Blaine doesn’t let people see him hurting, a fact it has taken Cooper far too long to fully comprehend (in fact, it’s only been in the past few months that he really has understood it). “Maybe,” Blaine says eventually, calmer, his voice rough and quiet and cracking where the tears want to be. “I can’t tell Mom, and you know how Dad is about this. About me.”

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Zuzu's Petals

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Title: Zuzu's Petals
Fandom: Glee
Pairing: Blaine/Sam
Summary: the one where Sam offers Blaine an olive branch, and somewhen falls in love.
Words: ~2400

Notes: Spoilers through the beginning of S4, but written before 404 (The Break Up) and definitely before 407 (Dynamic Duets). Speculative and fun.

Fall 2012, and there’s a low hum of sadness that hangs around the glee club now. Tina is sad because Mike is gone, and although it had been her decision to call it over before the hurting started, the pre-emptive strike has proved ineffective. There’s still a bone deep ache that lingers, and a tattoo on her hip that says “make change forever” but had said something entirely different for a short while. She remembers Mike Chang (no relation) every time she changes, every time she catches a glimpse of the letters etched into her skin, and it hurts a little in a way she hopes will eventually stop and kind of wishes never does. Sam hasn’t heard from Mercedes at all since she headed out to California, if you didn’t count a couple of generic group texts and the odd wall post on Facebook (or CityVille request, or the odd game of Draw Something since Sam is worse than useless at Words With Friends), and Brittany talks a lot about how hard it is to enjoy her favourite parts of loving Santana over Skype before testing the waters of madness by emulating Britney Spears, right down to the head shaving and the public meltdown (although perhaps no one would argue that Jacob hadn’t deserved it). The only upperclassman not wallowing in self-pity is Blaine, who seems, on the surface, to be determinedly upbeat and chipper, despite Kurt’s move and the readjustment that inevitably comes with it.

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Carry Me Home (3/3)

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Title: Carry Me Home
Fandom: Glee
Pairing: Primarily Kurt/Blaine, with passing Blaine/Sebastian, Kurt/OC(s), Blaine/OC(s)
Summary: the one where Blaine can't do casual sex, and Kurt sort of can (or, the one where Blaine tried to be the better man and let Kurt go, except that it didn't work out well for him).
Words: ~8500 (for all parts)
Warnings: dub-con, implied bondage, anonymous sex, barebacking (all parts)

Part 2

There’s a part of Blaine that doesn’t want Kurt to forgive him so easily. It’s the part of him that hurls itself bodily from Kurt’s lap as consciousness settles over him, the part of him that won’t let Kurt touch him, the part of him that says without any grace or eloquence that he’s sorry, he shouldn’t have come, and he’s leaving, he’s leaving now, that makes a move for Kurt’s room and his bag and misses by a mile because Kurt is in his way and has his hands on Blaine’s shoulders, forcing him to stillness and smiling sadly as tears pool unbidden in Blaine’s eyes. “Blaine,” he says quietly, stroking his face, running the pads of his thumbs across Blaine’s cheek bones. “Baby, stop it. I love you.” And that’s all it takes, the tears falling as Blaine crumples against him, Kurt’s arms the only things keeping him upright as he clings to him, Kurt’s lips gentle against his own before he helps them both to the floor.

“Don’t,” Blaine manages to whisper, turning his face away from Kurt’s. “Don’t love me.”

As if it’s ever been that easy.
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Carry Me Home (2/3)

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Title: Carry Me Home
Fandom: Glee
Pairing: Primarily Kurt/Blaine, with passing Blaine/Sebastian, Kurt/OC(s), Blaine/OC(s)
Summary: the one where Blaine can't do casual sex, and Kurt sort of can (or, the one where Blaine tried to be the better man and let Kurt go, except that it didn't work out well for him).
Words: ~8500 (for all parts)
Warnings: dub-con, implied bondage, anonymous sex, barebacking (all parts)

Part 1

Kurt spends the 6 days between Christmas and New Year alternating between sobbing and sleeping, and at one point is vaguely aware of his dad and Carole standing beside his bed staring at him and wondering aloud whether this is normal behaviour for an 18 year old. Kurt buries his face in his pillow, hiccups another sob, and whispers for his dad to not worry. He’ll be back in New York soon and - and he’ll be okay, there’s life after Blaine Anderson.

Except there isn’t.

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Carry Me Home (1/3)

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Title: Carry Me Home
Fandom: Glee
Pairing: Primarily Kurt/Blaine, with passing Blaine/Sebastian, Kurt/OC(s), Blaine/OC(s)
Summary: the one where Blaine can't do casual sex, and Kurt sort of can (or, the one where Blaine tried to be the better man and let Kurt go, except that it didn't work out well for him).
Words: ~8500 (for all parts)
Warnings: dub-con, implied bondage, anonymous sex, barebacking (all parts)

What Blaine could have used, in retrospect, was an adult sitting down with him and telling him in no uncertain terms that he mattered as well, that sex would change him irreversibly, and that that level of intimacy with another man would leave parts of him missing if he didn't protect himself. Blaine never had that talk.



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The Bowed Frame of Years

Further archiving (cross posted to AO3.)
Editing is weird. Only archived here for my benefit. Not fixed or fixing. Formatted correctly on AO3.

Title: The Bowed Frame of Years
Fandom: Glee
Pairing: Kurt/Blaine
Rating: Teen (?! Implied sex between consenting adults!)
Word Count: ~1300

Disclaimer: Glee, it's characters and intellectual property remain copyright FOX Network. I'm merely playing.
Notes: Based pretty much solely on a meta conversation I had about how Blaine will always look at Kurt like he's the most beautiful thing he's ever seen and this quote I read:

The man or woman that you really love will never grow old to you. Through the wrinkles of time, through the bowed frame of years, you will always see the dear face and feel the warm heart union of your eternal love.

(Alfred A. Montapert)


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